...'special'...

..i was caught unaware...
..was too timid but for her did i gulp the fear..
..when she spoke i quivered...
...my body went numb as i shivered..
..but still i gathered courage and dared..
..because i wanted her to know how much i cared..
..her words that showered with care...
..i felt ' special ' for the secrets she did share..
..when she spoke about her past...
..my heart started beating very fast..
..as time went by it started to unfold..
..she was the 'one' with a heart of gold..
..for her i was ready to face the guillotine..
..endure whatever even if my heart did whine...
..though i knew i was nothing less than a swine..
..in her i started seeing the shades of my ' valentine '..
 ..my past relationships have been a sham..
 ..don't want this ' special  ' one to slam..
 ..that is why we are the best of friends..
 ..i will let her know when my search ends...
..until that moment in the darkness do i grope..
..what keeps me going is a mirage called hope ..
..i ask myself..is this beginning of something to bloom..
 ..see the clouds clearing n the death of gloom..
  ..but i ll always live with one biggest regret..
 ..that is the sin i committed of making her wait.. :(